i think roomie steve is kind of ticked at me. i could be mistaken, but eh... it just feels like he is.

before he and josh moved in, i made sure to ask them whether or not they smoked. josh said no, he used to but not anymore. and steve said no, with the exception of once in a great while at a bar or something.

cool.

but then all of a sudden, josh started smoking again. and anyone who knows smokers knows it's like a chain reaction of sorts. so, i think maybe because of josh smoking, steve moved past the 'only at bars' thing, and it became more of an 'when i'm having a few beers' thing.

so with josh, it got totally out of hand. the reason i ask for no smoking is because i have asthma, and while josh was puffing away every other hour, i was forced to use my inhaler every friggin' day. most nights i was getting very little sleep because of asthma attacks, etc.

so i asked josh to kick the habit because it was affecting my health. he said one more pack, it turned in to two, and i finally had to put my foot down and say 'no more!'

so today, i see steve with pack in hand, and i had to lay it all out for him too. he seemed a little peeved.

people without asthma (esp. as severe as mine when it comes to smoking) seldom understand my reasoning. it doesn't matter if you're there, smoking right next to me, or if you smoke outside and then come in. because when you come in, the smell follows you. it's all over your clothes, your hair, etc. and then it sticks on the furniture. and then i wheeze and feel like shit.

but this is hard for people to grasp. they tend to see it as - if i'm not blowing smoke in your face, what's there to get sick about?

*sigh* it's not like i like having asthma. i wish i could walk by someone who's smoking without having to bust out my inhaler and puff away like the kid in goonies. but i can't. and smoking is truly a pretty disgusting habit anyway. but whatever.

i hope this passes and there are no hard feelings. it's not like i never mentioned anything about not smoking until now. i'm not mad at the guys, so i hope they're not pissed at me.

i just hate it when things get all jumbled like this.

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