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10.02.02 : 11:54 pm

i think i've fallen out of love with myself.

as horrible as that sounds, it's true. i try to think of qualities i like in myself, and i get nowhere with it. if i actually manage to come up with something, i convince myself it's not legit.

for example, i say to myself, ``you've got a good sense of humor, jen``... and then talk myself out of believing that by pointing out that damn near all moms thinks their kids are funny and i'm not making a living at stand up comedy, so. yeah.

enough whining already.

all i know is, it's not depressing, more like disturbing. and i want to fix it. i want to love myself again.

... i just don't understand why it's so damned hard to do.

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