my stomach is in knots. ugh. i always get so very stressed registering for school, and i have no idea why. ok, wait. i take that back... i do have an idea why. i think it has something to do with the first time i tried registering and i couldn't get any of the classes i needed. not one! that's scary enough to scar a girl for life.

on top of that, there's the unknown factor. you're determining the next four months of your life (which will in one way or another effect the rest of your life), in a matter of minutes. i'm reduced to the thought process of an anxious high schooler with my silent questions of, ``what if all of my teachers suck? what if they don't like me? what if i don't like them? what if the class is hard, more than i can handle? what if it's boring? what if i've gotten stupid over the summer? what if i fail?!``

geesh, i need to take it easy and cut myself some slack. i'm already stressing over failing a class that i have yet to set foot in. and i've never failed a class, so honestly i don't know where i come up with this stuff. *deep breath* i think it stems from getting straight a's all throughout elementary and high school. thanks to having one of those if-you-get-a-b-i'll-disown-you parents, i never got a b on a final report card. ever. and i even got straight a's in my first semester in college. but now i'm at a little over a 3.5 gpa. which is nothing to be ashamed of, i know. but it's just not what i've been conditioned to expect from myself. and i guess the thing is... i'm confident that i'll be able to get a's in three of my four classes. it's that fourth and final one that is at the source of my topsy turvy tummy - biology. ugh. and still, i shouldn't be stressing. forchristsake i got an a+ in hs honors biology and i won the damned science fair. but i am stressing. because this isn't high school anymore. i'm aware of that. and i'm also aware of the fact that i'm not much for science. my mind is not of the mathmatical/science sort. so... i guess this is like taking a weakness head on, and hoping that with enough studying and hard work, i'll come out the victor. but i don't think it will hurt to keep my fingers crossed. *g*

so yeah. i'm taking biology with lab, health, advanced english (whatever the hell that's supposed to be), and advanced public speaking (speech and debate team). my schedule looks something like this:

mon:

bio 12:30-1:50pm

tue:

health 11:00-12:20pm

english 12:30-1:50pm

speech 2:00-3:20pm

wed:

bio lecture 9:30-12:10pm

bio lab 12:30-1:50pm

thu:

health 11:00-12:20pm

english 12:30-1:50pm

overall, not a bad schedule. i don't have to wake up too early, i don't have to fight traffic, i have fridays and the weekends off for work and errands, and with the exception of tuesday, i'm out by 2:00pm, thus having free afternoons/evenings. not too shabby. looks like this semester might not be that bad afterall. *smiles*

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